IN TOUGH TIME LIKE THIS, I TRULY UNDERSTAND THE IMPORTANCE OF FAMILY.

and so after all the planning, i decided to drop the idea of having a chalet on my bday, instead im gonna have a dinner at a posh resturant and drinking session at a local pub or something? ok, this really sux!! i really hate it that way. Through my 17 years of life i never have a celebration before. Right, to be exact, my first celebration was when im 3? the jolly good time when i blew a bday cake with so many pple around me to shared my joy!! yes hell, that was ages ago i cannot even remembered how the whole things actually went. and that celebration was my first and last time till date.

so whenever im 4,5,6 or 7(so on) years old ( still under parental control), i stop all the blowing cake moment and what a bday peep will normally do. every year on my bday, i will just go to school and eat packet food like any typical days.( my mom don't cook except on chinese new year). v pathetic and cham, i know. This year, fucking hell worst, i will cried whenever i talk about it, normally i don't even shed a tears despite all the kns bday celebration. on every chinese bday(there's a chinese and english bday for the chinese) my mom will cook mee suan and red egg for the shou xin gong. However, this year my mom did not practice what she usually do, instead she asked me to buy egg, boil the egg and coloured the egg ALL BY MYSELF! srsly no meaning right! whenever i talk about it tears will start to prick my eyes and the crying thing will start.

sometimes i hate the fact that my bday falls on the early part of the year because that when everybody will be SUPER-DUPER busy and fret over school stuff, eventually friends around me will forget my bday.

and this year, on my 18 bday when im semi-free from parental control i actually wanted to have a bday celebration for myself, but it seems that most of them can't make it because it falls on the weekday and major exam round the corner for the poly pple. i know i shouldn't get so anxious and disappointed over it. like what Christina said, she dont see pple celebration their 18 bday till so grandeur. it always the OH-THE-SWEET-SIXTEEN AND FREE-FROM-PATERNAL-CONTROL-21. but it not the about the grand or magnificent part, but the bday celebration that im truly happy, proud of it and not regret in any bit.

YOU, YOUR THE SEX IS ON FIRE........

working at swensens call center is fucking stress can. i'm stress. i'm stress i'm stress. can die. can die. can die. i can have like three /four mistakes in a week.. YES AT LEAST ONE MISTAKE HOH!!! how terrible!! wrong delivery kinda of thang. i'm so guilty, instead of helping my partner eased her work load imma like making thang worse??!! BUT Twoday imma so happy because i helped my partner, she got a complaint. so i pretend imma a manager and talked to the customer and after i hang the phone call both of us HI-TEN!!!

omm. mmm. today is dim sum day. supsup. i tried taking nice photos w my uncle's DSLR, and if i can prove to him that i got a talent in photography he's gonna give me the DSLR. YAY!! awesome much! but stupid Christina, Ivy and Zuer said i failed terribly. v discouraging. gotta pray hard i get the camera! wait for pictures to be upload. on a sway note, ivy picked a sway lot, and three of us were laughing hysterically!!! we talked about 2012, how true is that??!! imma scared!!!!!

and there's a party and it on the 20 and it at stjames and should i go??? and am in sucha dilemma state. and Esther lai keep urging me to go. HOW NAO BROWN COW??

i create a blog. so yay. i guess i wouldn't be updating daily. who cares? well well well, i decided to create a blog, because i LIKE!!