Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Sunday, January 3, 2010
and so after all the planning, i decided to drop the idea of having a chalet on my bday, instead im gonna have a dinner at a posh resturant and drinking session at a local pub or something? ok, this really sux!! i really hate it that way. Through my 17 years of life i never have a celebration before. Right, to be exact, my first celebration was when im 3? the jolly good time when i blew a bday cake with so many pple around me to shared my joy!! yes hell, that was ages ago i cannot even remembered how the whole things actually went. and that celebration was my first and last time till date.
so whenever im 4,5,6 or 7(so on) years old ( still under parental control), i stop all the blowing cake moment and what a bday peep will normally do. every year on my bday, i will just go to school and eat packet food like any typical days.( my mom don't cook except on chinese new year). v pathetic and cham, i know. This year, fucking hell worst, i will cried whenever i talk about it, normally i don't even shed a tears despite all the kns bday celebration. on every chinese bday(there's a chinese and english bday for the chinese) my mom will cook mee suan and red egg for the shou xin gong. However, this year my mom did not practice what she usually do, instead she asked me to buy egg, boil the egg and coloured the egg ALL BY MYSELF! srsly no meaning right! whenever i talk about it tears will start to prick my eyes and the crying thing will start.
sometimes i hate the fact that my bday falls on the early part of the year because that when everybody will be SUPER-DUPER busy and fret over school stuff, eventually friends around me will forget my bday.
and this year, on my 18 bday when im semi-free from parental control i actually wanted to have a bday celebration for myself, but it seems that most of them can't make it because it falls on the weekday and major exam round the corner for the poly pple. i know i shouldn't get so anxious and disappointed over it. like what Christina said, she dont see pple celebration their 18 bday till so grandeur. it always the OH-THE-SWEET-SIXTEEN AND FREE-FROM-PATERNAL-CONTROL-21. but it not the about the grand or magnificent part, but the bday celebration that im truly happy, proud of it and not regret in any bit.
so whenever im 4,5,6 or 7(so on) years old ( still under parental control), i stop all the blowing cake moment and what a bday peep will normally do. every year on my bday, i will just go to school and eat packet food like any typical days.( my mom don't cook except on chinese new year). v pathetic and cham, i know. This year, fucking hell worst, i will cried whenever i talk about it, normally i don't even shed a tears despite all the kns bday celebration. on every chinese bday(there's a chinese and english bday for the chinese) my mom will cook mee suan and red egg for the shou xin gong. However, this year my mom did not practice what she usually do, instead she asked me to buy egg, boil the egg and coloured the egg ALL BY MYSELF! srsly no meaning right! whenever i talk about it tears will start to prick my eyes and the crying thing will start.
sometimes i hate the fact that my bday falls on the early part of the year because that when everybody will be SUPER-DUPER busy and fret over school stuff, eventually friends around me will forget my bday.
and this year, on my 18 bday when im semi-free from parental control i actually wanted to have a bday celebration for myself, but it seems that most of them can't make it because it falls on the weekday and major exam round the corner for the poly pple. i know i shouldn't get so anxious and disappointed over it. like what Christina said, she dont see pple celebration their 18 bday till so grandeur. it always the OH-THE-SWEET-SIXTEEN AND FREE-FROM-PATERNAL-CONTROL-21. but it not the about the grand or magnificent part, but the bday celebration that im truly happy, proud of it and not regret in any bit.
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